I hate how I feel so emotional and I want to pour it yet, but I don't know how. I don't even know what I'm feeling, its fuzzy, its weird. But its something and its there. I don't have anything to write, I don't really want to paint (hand has been super painful lately argh!). I know its going to get pent up if I don't do anything about it. How can you do something about it when you don't comprehend whats wrong with you? Its making me crazy!